Only God Can Comfort In Such Unimaginable Ways

Two months ago I wrote a blog post on the due day of the baby we had miscarried.  In it, I wrote about how God was working in our lives even on that very day.  I wrote, “He has comforted me in a way that that seems almost impossible, too good to be true.  He has shown me once again how much He loves me and how much I can truly trust Him.  He is sovereign and He alone has the power to give and take away.”

Although intentionally veiled, I can now share with you the specifics of HOW he comforted us on that day.  During the first week in June I was feeling very tired and sluggish.  I just assumed it was because I was very aware of the approaching due date. I was sad and unmotivated to do things my normal peppy self desired. For anyone who knows our history I have a very irregular cycle and we struggled for 2 years with infertility so exhaustion is always my first indicator that I’m pregnant, not a missed period like most women.  Since I was so tired, the thought that I could be pregnant had crossed my mind. However, I figured that I was just hoping to be pregnant and longing for another little one so much that I was imagining the “symptoms.”  When I woke up on the due date, I supposed that maybe I should take a pregnancy test because I would rather see the negative that day than drag out any sadness or disappointment to another day.  But, in God’s sweet mercy and extravagant kindness, the test was POSITIVE.

Yes, on the baby’s due date we discovered that God had yet again given life!  He had allowed Josh and I to get pregnant for a fourth time!  We immediately wept and rejoiced over this blessing.  We were so thankful and fell to the bed praising God and pleading with him to sustain this little life.

We obviously decided to wait awhile to tell anyone.  A few close friends found out a couple weeks ago and last weekend we made a trip to tell family.  Now, as I am 14 weeks pregnant, we’re announcing it to everyone in hopes we will gain the prayers of many.  So far, we’ve had two encouraging ultrasounds and I’m starting to feel occasional little flutters in my womb.  Each time it is such a wonderful reminder of God’s greatness and how he loves us so intimately.  This is just another example that He knows us better than we know ourselves and he loves us more deeply than we can imagine.  Be encouraged by the Father’s love today!

*Oh, and just a little side note…Addilyn has continued to ask for several months why I didn’t have a baby in my tummy anymore. We always responded patiently telling her, “that God wanted the baby to go to heaven and be with him.”  A few dozen times when we have prayed either before a meal or at bedtime, Addilyn has prayed specifically, “God please give Mommy another baby in her tummy so I can have a brother or sister.”  Every time my heart would just melt and several times her sweet sincere words would make me cry.  However, the best moment happened when we told the kids that I was pregnant.  Addilyn got so excited and immediately responded by saying, “Mommy, Mommy, that’s what I been askin’ God for….HE HEARD ME!”  Moments like these are cherished forever.  I’m so so so very thankful!